Thursday, December 22, 2011

Tires, heartburn, and impatience..

Pregnancy has been showing itself in full force.

I now have a "tire" positioned around my waist that I hope will soon begin to round out into a pregnant belly. This whole look I have going which makes me appear as though I'm in need of losing a few 20 lbs and doing some serious crunches is NOT helping my hormonal, lack of a self-esteem. Everything on my left side is growing. I'm assuming it's because baby is positioned on that side. (If not, I'm going to continue persuading myself of this) Needless to say, I don't have the luxury of walking around with a "glow" that makes everyone stop in their tracks and stare in jealousy of my beautiful pregnant self. Wishful thinking.

Perk: I have a beautiful baby inside of me that is forming so perfectly and that in itself is worth my self esteem and body being taken over without my input. Not to say that I won't cry in 10 minutes about being fat and ugly, but at least after each emo breakdown I know that it is all for the baby. Pregnancy is a sacrifice, without a doubt in many ways, but one that I would be willing to make time and time again.

At week 16, I started feeling the baby kick or flutter, whatever you wanna call it, and let me tell you..I LOVE IT. The 1st 14-15ish weeks I didn't feel "pregnant" other than the sickness. Now that I am feeling my baby move, it just gives a peace of mind that he or she is really in there. WOW. I can't wait until they get stronger, Kyle can feel them, and we can see him or her actually moving across my stomach.

At week 16, I was still experiencing the sickness. It is looking like I will be one of those who is sick throughout, but praying it's just taking a little longer to go away but that relief is on the horizon. I was so sick. Couldn't keep any medicine down, vomiting every 20 minutes, a headache from down yonder that kept me in tears, the list goes on. It was awful. I never knew the migraines that accompanied pregnancy. Wheeeeew weeee! Not fun.

This past week, week 17, I have felt a lot better. I got medicine for my migraines which work within 30 minutes. THANK YOU JESUS! I'm hoping the headaches where what were causing the vomiting, because I haven't gotten sick since. The only thing I'm dealing with is an over-active bladder, not that I'm surprised. Well that an heartburn. Lord, do I have some ridiculous heartburn!! Hopefully that fulfills it's truth with the old saying that heartburn equals lots of hair! Oh how I'd love to have a baby with a head FULL of hair. A bald baby will be just lovely too. ;)

We've spent the last week in Mississippi with Kyle's family. So it was definitely nice not being sick. It was also a great way to get my mind off of thinking about baby stuff 24/7 and enjoying company, watching movies, playing games, etc instead. I'm not looking forward to the ride home. The idea of being stuck in a car is not exciting. :/

I still have to wait 3 weeks until we find out the gender. The anticipation is driving me CRAZY. I'm so ready to be able to put a name to this angel in my belly. I just hope I can be creative enough to pull of the gender reveal party successfully. Even though the fact of the matter is, they won't care as much about the party as they will about whether we are having a boy or girl.

Definitely exciting times are ahead. Now if only I could just fast-forward jusssssst a little..

Friday, December 2, 2011

Weeks 14 & 15

15 weeks today! YAY!

How I'm feeling: I can say in these past few days I have felt great! I've been in an especially good mood. The only symptoms I've been dealing with from week 14 until now are headaches and cramping. When my headaches come it is nothing like I've ever experienced before. They are NOTHING like pre-pregnancy headaches. It feels like my head and neck are being hit continuously with a hammer times 9 thousand. My cramps feel like my insides are stretching from one pelvis to the other. I'm reminding myself that all the stretching is my body's way of preparing itself for the little, rapid-growing baby that is in there. In that case, all of these discomforts are worth it. :)

I lack the patience I need! I still have 5 weeks to go until I find out whether my little boo is a BOY or a GIRL! The waiting game is driving me craaaaazy! It feels like the days and weeks are going by so slow! Plus, it doesn't help that I'm at home all day with nothing to take my mind off of it. I'm so curious to see! Everyone around, for the most part, says GIRL. I will be equally thrilled either way, I just wanna know NOW! I wish I could beg my Dr. to get out the ultrasound machine and check at my next appointment instead of making me wait til 20! A girl can dream..

I haven't felt any real flutters yet, but I'm hopeful that they will come soon. My mom just bought us a heart doppler, so hopefully we can get that working soon and be able to hear the heartbeat whenever we want. :)

Milestones of the week:
  • I had my first instinct/feeling that "it" is a boy. I'm not counting on it because I'm not dead-set on it. I really don't know!?! All the silly wives tales things point toward girl.
  • I graduate from college next Saturday, Dec 10th. That's an accomplishment! I will be the first in my family to graduate from college.

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

My sweet baby is a survivor.

On Friday was my official 13 weeks. Also my official first day of my (drum roll please...) SECOND TRIMESTER! YAY!!!! To me, the 2nd tri meant: no more nausea, no more psycho roller coaster of emotions, no more fatigue, etc.

I WAS WRONG. Well so far anyways.

On Friday, I was sicker than a dog. I was nauseated, had an awful migraine, dizzy, tired, need I go on? I decided to take a bath because they normally did the trick for my headaches. Within 10 minutes of soaking, I got this urge that I was going to get sick. Needless to say, I did, and it was the sickest I've gotten so far. NOT MY IDEA OF A FRIDAY NIGHT. After taking tylenol, drinking juice, and going to bed, I was hopeful the next day was going to knock this one out of the park..


On Saturday, I woke up feeling good. Not nauseated at all, no sign of a headache..I was hopeful. I was sitting in the recliner visiting with my family. (in Arkansas to be more specific, 6 hours from Wichita Falls) I get the usual need to go tinkle. Yay overactive bladder!! ;) I go to the restroom and to my dismay I have started spotting/bleeding. Devastated doesn't even begin to describe.. I scream for my mom. She comes in along with my Mammaw and sees why I'm so hysterical. My uncle rushes my mom and I to the ER, after I changed into jeans of course.. and there the waiting game begin. I had a million thoughts running through my head. I decided not to call Kyle or any family until I knew for sure what was going on. I was trying to hope for the best but my tears and emotions had me at my worst. I just kept praying "God, Don't let this be it. I haven't done anything wrong. I love this baby. Please let everything be okay." With a tear-drenched face, they got us back into the ER, and I swear anytime someone walked through the door to talk to me I started bawling again. They were the nicest people, and kept telling me everything was going to be okay, that blood does not always mean miscarriage and that they are going to figure out what's going on. Of course I appreciated the sweet words, but until I saw my angel and that heartbeat, no words could console.

They did an exam to find the bleeding, and thought it might be a bacterial infection. They took viles of blood to run various tests. Then finally they took me back to the ultrasound room. My nurse informed me she had never seen 2 uteruses before and that she was excited to see what it looked like. Glad I could be of some entertainment for the evening..still all I cared about was my baby. She found the baby, heart beating strong. 168 bpm (It's slowing down from the previous sono's but still fast!!) So then I was relieved. She poked and proded and looked around and took boocoos of pictures, then back my ER room. The Dr. came in and told me that it wasn't an infection, but I had a UTI which most likely causing the spotting. They said the bleeding had stopped wherever it had come from. So got a prescription, and they sent us on our way with an order to take it very easy while I'm on my meds.


So I didn't have the greatest start to my 2nd trimester, but now that I know everything is okay I just thank the good Lord daily for such a miracle baby, and keep pressing on and preparing to be a mommy in 6 months. YAY!

While I'm having to lay in bed and take it easy, my wonderful pastor's wife Pam taught me how to cross-stitch and got me the stuff to make my first bib for the baby. I'm so thankful and excited.

What I am feeling:
I have energy out the wazoo! I am still really shaky, which the doctor said could be blood sugar. My belly bump is becoming more defined. Only symptoms really are headaches. Oh, I have found my first preggo craving!! I can't get enough apples! (Glad it's a healthy craving)

Baby this week:
Our little prince(ss) is the size of a peach right now. He/she is somewhere around 2.9 inches long and weighs about .81 ounces. Growing like crazy! At the ultrasound in the ER, it was amazing to see how much the baby has grown just in 2 weeks! Everything is progressing so fast!

Baby bump at exactly 13 weeks. It's growing!

The first 3 months of a mommy in preparation

I have enjoyed being pregnant so far, despite the morning sickness. I have a feeling I'm going to enjoy my 2nd trimester even more. ;) Here is a recap of my first 3 months:

How we found out:
We found out we were pregnant at about 5 weeks, so early on. I was student teaching, and my teacher I was with told me that I needed to take a pregnancy test. I was late, but I assumed it was stress from all of the work from teaching and school. I finally gave in and let her convince me, and I took a test that night before my bath. I wasn't going to look until after my bath because I was use to the negative again and again on those let-down sticks. Well as I was walking by the the counter, it caught my eye.. Two very dark pink lines were there. PREGNANT. I called my mom, texted Kristy and told her she was right, and waited for Kyle's parents to come so we could tell them. I put the pregnancy test in a little gift bag and gave it to Vicki (my mother-in-law). Of course everyone was excited. Then we just had to wait for the official yes from the doctor. Got that the next day, so then we knew this was for real. Let the praying begin for a healthy successful pregnancy.

How I felt:
Weeks 5-7: TIRED, TIRED, TIRED. I didn't have any nausea, just could barely keep my eyes open all day while teaching.

Weeks 8-11: Nausea set in. I was nauseous sun up to sun down every day it seemed. I did not actually get sick but maybe 5 random times. Can't stand the thought or smell or taste of pasta (except ramen noodles and chinese). No specific cravings, but definite on what I didn't want. Normally I'm not an opinionated person when it comes to food..that is until pregnancy. I had a hard time going to the restroom. TMI, I know, but it's fact, and definitely not any fun. Which leads me to my next symptom...cramping. I have been cramping since day 1. Nothing severe but definitely considered a cramp. I believe this is due to the unable to use the restroom part. Around week 11 I started noticing my baby bump. It was getting harder and would stay looking bloated all the time. Prior I would bloat after eating but it would go down, especially overnight. Not anymore, so obviously an early show-er. My face has been breaking out more, mostly the left side. Normally I don't break out except the occasional blemish. My hair remains oily, no matter how often I wash it. No fun. Lastly, awful mood swings. I could go from crazy happy to crying because I'm just so ugly in .2 seconds. Poor husband. He's a trooper.

Week 12: Nausea is a lot less. It is now being replaced with migraine headaches. :( Also very dizzy. I am not near as tired anymore, which leads me to having trouble sleeping. My hormones seem to be balancing because I'm not experiencing as many mood swings. YAY!

  • Got our first ultrasound on October 20th. Heart rate: 178. FAST! Girl? ;)
  • Found out I was born with 2 fully-formed uteruses. I'm an original :). Shouldn't affect pregnancy: possible pre-term labor, breech baby, which in my head means possible c-section.
  • November 8th we got our second sono. It was amazing to see our little prince(ss) dancing and swimming around in there shaking its' little booty. Kept those legs crossed at the ankles the whole time. Heart rate: 176. STILL FAST! ;)
Here is our first sonogram!
8 wks 6 days! Our little nugget!

Here is our 11wk 4 day sonogram! Look at those chicken legs!
It is amazing to me how you can already see the nose and mouth!! SO SWEET


Here we are expecting our first little angel. I wanted to keep a blog of the things that happen throughout the pregnancy so that one day I look back and see the details and special key points in this process. Since Kyle and I had been trying for a little while to get pregnant, this baby is very special to us. We are due May 25, 2012. As you can tell I'm starting this 3 months late, but better late than never in my opinion. It's such an amazing journey and it still leaves me in awe that the Creator of the Universe is allowing me the opportunity to carry this baby into the world. I can't believe I'm going to be a mommy!!! All my dreams as a little girl, teenager, and adult are coming true and it is such an exciting new time in our lives. So here we go.....